The Fall Of An Khe

by John Samuel Tieman

I never saw Saigon.   In 1970, I was stationed at Camp Radcliff next to the village of An Khe in the Central Highlands.   I was assigned to the army’s 4th Infantry Division.   The 4th lived way north of Saigon.  

But in March of 1975, a month before The Fall Of Saigon, I lived in Dallas with Debbie Dugan.   We met at Southern Methodist University, where we were both studied history.   In addition to a love for the past, Debbie and I shared an enthusiasm for great sex and a lot of it.   Which is about all we had in common.   That said, Debbie was a sexy and beautiful woman with a gentle and generous heart.

I left Vietnam in December of 1970.   I was twenty.   Those years, between my participation in the war and The Fall Of Saigon, were a time longer than America’s entire involvement in World War II.   This was the whole of my undergraduate years, the early 70’s.  Dallas was a long way from An Khe, but the war was never far from me.   One night, it occurred to me that, for the first time since my discharge, I had gone 24 hours without dwelling on the war.   I was a junior.

In my senior year of college, in 1975, the North Vietnamese invaded the South.   I knew the South wouldn’t fight.   Not that I blamed them.   Who wants to be the last man to die?

Every evening that March, I watched the TV news.   I watched for the map.   As the North captured another chunk of the South, that bit of the map was painted red.   One evening, An Khe was red

Camp Radcliff fell without a fight.   The South Vietnamese Army just ran.   Not that I wanted anyone to die.   But An Khe fell without a fight.   And I wept bitterly.  

I thought of Williams Bridge.   Williams Bridge spanned a small river in An Khe.   Specialist 4th Class Eric Williams died while building that bridge.   I never met him.   He died four years before my tour of duty.   Every time I passed that way, I read his plaque.   I identified with him.   I’m not sure why.   Perhaps it was because we shared the same rank.   Perhaps, as the Good Book says, “There, but for the grace of God …”

As I watched the news in March of 1975, I thought about the death of Specialist Williams.   Somewhere, in all that grief, were all the deaths, Americans, Vietnamese, the French and all the rest.   But I fixed on The Sp. 4 Eric Williams Bridge.   And I wept bitterly.   Because it was all in vain.

Twice in my life, I have wept like that.   The other time was when my father died.  

Debbie did her best to comfort me, something for which I remain grateful.   But my grief confused her.   I was the only veteran she knew.   I’d heard of Nam vets being spit on and such.   Their sadness notwithstanding, my experience was one of isolation.   I was the only Vietnam veteran I knew at SMU.

The next day was an ordinary weekday.   I just went to class.   I remember listening to a lecture in Dallas Hall.   And knowing I was alone.   Because, of all my classmates, my teachers, friends, people I liked, people I loved, of all those folks, I alone wept for Eric Williams.

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